WTF??/

I just got this from someone from my forum on EZ board:

"I have been chatting to [name deleted for privacy on my board] on msn and she has told me that shit has gone down on yams (she had joined up to stick up for Caz after she got 'in')"

What the hell is YAMS talking about me for? I haven't even looked at their site since I told Julia how I was getting access (which was very hard for me to do - but I wanted to stop and get better). That was quite a while ago. I also haven't even been on the net for about a week at all!!! And apparently all this went down in the last couple of days!.

I did a good job of rocking their boat, if they are *still* talking about me after all this time... and it's when I hear about things like this that I want to try and find a way to get in to read about what they are saying about me..

I won't this time though - I don't want to go backwards. I am feeling the happiest I have for a hell of a long time. I feel like I have direction, and I am actually making new friends (which hasn't happened for a while now). It's made me realise how I have blocked myself from the real world and how I am actually responsible for causing all the shit that happens to me. I am taking control now, and I am not going to stoop to that level again. I don't need to know what they are saying so fuck them.

Seriously though - I do wish that the people on my board would leave Yams alone, or not bring it back to me. I am over it. I wish I didn't keep it (the board) going like Shannon suggested, and I often want to leave it (especially when this kind of crap goes down), but I've always wanted to host a successful forum board, and this is the closest to successful I've had, and if they left Yams off it, it would probably become more successful.

Just found out some sad news...

When I was working at Middle Swan Primary School last year, there was a young boy (still at high school) who was doing a prac with the sport's teacher. He was really nice and he also was one hell of a role model for the children.
He was of Aboriginal Descent, but showed all the children that did not mean he had to be a drunk, drug addict, or have an attitude anything that is usually associated with Aboriginals (especially in that area).

Last weekend, there was a car accident not too far from where Jami and Mum live, that took the lives of two teenage boys, and left 3 in critical conditions. He was one of the ones to die.

I found out today while reading the newspaper.

It is so sad. He had such potential for the future. He was going somewhere, and he was making a difference. He made so much difference to some of those kids, that I don't think even he would have realised. He inspired them.

I worked with him. I spoke with him. I joked with him. I believed he would be a person who would one day help mend the racist division between black and white. I guess I was wrong.

I am going to pray for him for 70 days, as my religion beckons. Mum is going to see if she can find out when the funeral is for me, and if I can, I am going to go. He was a decent man, and the world is that little more poorer having lost him.

Rest in Peace Aubrey Ryder.

WOOO HOOO

On Thursday night, my SIL, came over and told me she had got tickets to Nova's Swinger party tonight. I was so shitty as I really wanted tickets to it, and had been trying. She had a double pass, and had decided to take one of her friends, as she couldn't choose between me and Shaun.
When she saw how disappointed I was, she decided to try for some more tickets, so did Shaun and so did I...

The result? Yesterday I got tickets to it!! WOOO HOOO

So tonight I am going to be at the party and it had better rock!!!! Got my costume ready and it's going to be soooo much fun with Shaun and Gina and her friend there.


Promise to post photos!

I've taken my journal off friends only

As I have nothing to hide anymore.

So anyone who wants to add me, regardless of who you are - go ahead - I'll add you. If not, just come and read whenever you want.